It's a New Day

I feel better now as if it's a new day. Narealize ko na hindi ko pala kailangan ng ipod. Na-realize ko na isa itong status symbol. Oo, I value it a lot pero hindi ito sapat para ikalugmok ko to. May panahon talaga na bigla nalang mawawala ang mga bagay na importante satin and at the end of the day, kelangang natin mag move on. 

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Masaya ako ngayong araw na ito kasi pumunta si Jic. Malapit na ang pasukan at miss na miss na namin ang isa't isa. Behave naman kami in all fairnes. "Close your eyes, hold me tight, while your lips meet mine." moment.

Masaya ako kasi naging boyfriend ko si Jic. Maswerte ako kasi mahal na mahal niya ako at alam ko hindi sya yung tipo ng lalaki na lolokohin ako. Sa totoo lang, hindi pa sapat ang blog na ito para ma-express ko yung totoong nararamdaman ko kay Jic. Ganoon ko lang siya kamahal. 

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Isang panibagong araw, isang panibagong panahon. Ano kaya ang susunod na mangyayari sa akin? 

Koma on a Sunday

Well, as for me telling the truth has not been easy. My mom still hates me. Kahit hinataw nya ako ng walis-tingting kanina atnagsasugat ako sa mata, I want to patch things up but sasabihin niya lang na nagsisinungaling ako. She was right and I was wrong. Same shit. When in truth, I did not lie.  My dad, in all fairness was in a good mood today. I'm glad. One mad komander is enough if you'll ask me. 'Nuff said.

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Si Jic nasa Baguio ngayon with his mom. He called me earlier. Sweet ng mommy niya kasi binilhan daw ako ng cardigan. I love cardigans and Jic is aware of that. I told him about my scenario and he fully supports me. I'm very glad. At least someone believes in me.

Neophyte

This I have to say, is my favorite.

Casual no?

At ease.

I also like this one, although I'm not sure about my hands. I need to relax I guess?

Like a boss?

Sunbeamed.

Loli~

Chillin'

All credits to my cousin who happens to be an aspiring photog, Tin-tin <3

Manipis na Tension

Sana nandito lang sa bahay yung ipod ko. Well, ok na ako ngayon. Nakauwi na parents ko at may dala silang pizza. Siguro tinamad si mama magluto. Nakakainis lang, nagbibiro ako kanina na baka kinuha ng duwende itouch ko, hindi ko alam sineryoso pala ng magulang ko yun. Akala yata nila nasisiraan na ako ng bait. Paiba-iba raw ako ng statements. Nasa korte suprema o senado ba ako? Prosecution duo ba ang parents ko. Strange talaga. Eng-eng ko rin kasi nagpapadala ako masyado at apektado ako agad sa accusations nila. Pero after dinner, I stood firm and told them what I know and what I remember. Sad lang kasi my sister is the only witness yet she doesn't support me much. Siguro onti lang. Pero it's not enough to convince my parents.

In other words, malungkot parin ako. Alam ko sa sarili ko na nagsasabi ako ng totoo. Hindi ako nagsisinungaling. Kung anong natatandaan ko, sasabihin ko. Mapurol man memorya ko, nagsasabi naman ako ng totoo. Hindi lang siguro kinaya ng ego at na-stress ako kakaisip. Tska ngayon pa ba ako magsisinungaling? Eh nawawala na nga yung isang precious na gamit sakin? Masakit po. 

Siguro ang pinaka-huling resort ko nalang ay manalangin. Wala namang impossible sa Kanya. 

Frustration Starts Now

Nakakainis na talaga. Sinabi ko naman lahat ng natatandaan ko eh. Then again, ako pa sinungaling. Tingin ba nila masaya ako sa nangyari sa pagkawala ng ipod ko? HINDI! How would you feel if sarili mong magulang, MOCKS YOU. Di ba masakit? Dapat sana sila yung taong dadamayan ka. Pero NO! THEY MOCK THE HELL OUT OF YOU. AS IF THEY'RE HAPPY. 

This is what I hate in this house. Sinasabi nila na selfish ako when in truth SELFISH RIN SILA. Yes, marami silang sinacrifice para samin pero lahat may kapalit. Kelangan mo maging perfect. Good grades are not enough. Sila lang tama, ako lagi mali. Sigaw sila ng sigaw, matataranta ka. Tapos pag nataranta ka, kasalanan mo parin. Hindi ba nila alam nahihirapan ako? Hindi ba nila alam na nakakadepress lang lalo? Hirap. Yung ipod na yun, yun lang ang gamit na maligaya ako. Madali siyang gamitin para sakin kasi hindi sila nagbigay nito sakin. Ang sakit lang eh. Yung tanging bagay na nagpapaligaya sayo, mawawala pa. Tanging bagay na mapagmamalaki mo, lumaho pa.

Hindi ko alam kung pano ko pa ilalabas lahat ng galit ko. Pag si daddy nawawalan ng gamit, tumutulong ako sa paghahanap. Minsan nga ako pag nakakahanap. Pero ngayon, HE MOCKED ME. Sinong selfish samin? Ako lang ba? Masaya siya ngayon kasi may blackberry siya na pinagmamayabang niya samin dito sa bahay. Minsan nakakarindi rin. Pag kami naman ang nagkwekwento WALA SILANG PAKIELAM. Saya. Minsang kinwento ko na gusto ko rin ng blackberry at nais kong pag-ipunan. Sinabihan niya ako na hwag ko ng ituloy dahil hindi ko kailangan. Wala ba akong karapatan makatanggap ng magandang gamit man lang?

Sana hindi nalang nawala ipod ko. Hindi ko matanggap na wala na yung ipod ko na kadamay ko sa malungkot at masasayang araw sa buhay ko. Lubos na panghihinayang at galit ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi mo siguro mapipinta ang mukha ko ngayon. 

Ngayon, wala na akong gamit na masasabing AKIN. Dahil mismo itong laptop na hawak ko, bagamat regalo sa aing 18th birthday ay kasama sa SUMBAT na matatanggap ko sa tuwing may pagkakamali ako.  

Isa nanaman itong hamon para sa akin. Ang sakit mawalan ng gamit na pinahahalagahahan mo. Nawala ng parang bula kahit pinag-ingatan mo. Pinapanalangin ko na sana, nandito lang ang ipod ko sa bahay. Siguradong, ikaliligaya ko yun. Tanging ligaya ko yun.

Amnesia Girl

Have you ever felt how it's like to misplace something and abIle to recall it? I had a rough start today because I cannot find my iTouch. I hate it when I can't recall something. It frustrates me when everything is so blank.

That iTouch is very precious to me because that was given to me by my ninong and ninang. The fact that my parents would NEVER buy me one. I guess that explains why I twitch to find it. I value it that much it stresses me out.

I also feel scared because of my so-called ''what-ifs'', like 'what if I left it in the tryc?' or 'what if I'll never find it'. Anxiety strikes. I can't help it.

The weird thing is, I found other lost items like the missing earbuds of my earphones and my watch. My mom said that she would help me look for it. There's even a reward to whoever finds it. Lord, please help me find it. T_______T

Kaichou Wa Maid Sama

Kaichou Wa Maid Sama (Our President is a Maid!)

Seika High School, once an all-boys school notorious for its wild students and for generally being a terrifying place for girls, has recently become a co-ed school. With the female population still a minority and living in fear of the over-the-top antics of the males, Misaki Ayuzawa takes it into her own hands to reform the school and allow the girls to feel safe in the rough environment.

Training, studying, and even becoming the first female student council president of the school, Misaki has gained a reputation among the male students body as an uptight, boy-hating dictator and as a shining hope for the teachers and fellow female students. However, despite her tough-as-nails appearance, she secretly works part-time at a maid café in order to support her family. Unfortunately, her hard-earned reputation is threatened when the popular, attractive, and somewhat impassive Takumi Usui takes an interest in her after discovering her in a maid uniform after school. (Taken from WIKI)

I really like this manga. It's so cute and entertaining! It's not 'that' predictable and the plot is really nice. As expected from LALA Mag (which happens to publish OURAN HS HOST CLUB which is another favorite of mine). I wish they would update the manga soon! Moe Moe~

Here's a few pics I gathered due to Otaku Self.

Be sure to check it. ;) 

Warmth of a Hug

A hug is a universal form of physical intimacy, in which two people wrap their arms around the other person's upper body or neck. A hug indicates familiarity towards another person. It's a form of non-verbal communication which usually demonstrates love, warm affection, friendship and even sympathy. 

During my jaded moments I came across this nice drawing of two people hugging each other. I remember telling my boyfriend to hug me tight and not let go because I want to savor the warmth of the hug. I said that to him because I know that I wont be able to hug him that tight of quite sometime. I don't do PDA. Whenever I remember that moment, I just feel butterflies in my stomach. I miss him.

I'm a hugger. I hug the people I LOVE. To me, a hug is the best thing you can share. Free hugs anyone? :)

Off The Wall

Vans   the ultimate pair I've always wanted. I wasn't a big fan of vans back then until my boyfriend told me good stuffs about this awesome brand. I also admire Converse and Keds but I think Vans fits me best.

This I have to say I got a bag (Vans) as a gift from my boyfriend's mom. Sweet isn't it? It's a bit out of context but you'll get over it.

Here are some pairs that I'd like to get my hands (or feet?) on in the near future.

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They call this one, OLD SKOOL. I think this is available in the market. 

What I like about this shoes is the white zig-zag trademark. The color is basic which I adore.

I feel it's matibay.

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This red one is also nice. It's very common though but I like it's simplicity. It's like Keds, only better. To me, it's very casual and laid back. It's something that I would wear to the mall or something. It's where style meets comfort. 

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To be honest with you, I'm not really sure what pair is destined for me. I hope I get my own pair soon. I don't want my parents to meddle with the "buying" part. Which means that this propaganda will be the result of my ipon. I do hope and pray that I'll have my own kicks soon. :)

My Generation

I was born before, during or right after the explosion of Brit Pop.

It was Disney Movies, not Disney channel.

Back then Blackberry and Apple were just fruits.

Camera films and albums were not linked virtually.

It was Sabrina the Teenage Witch not Wizards of Waverly Place.

Good old Cartoon Network Days. Hi Dexter and Powerpuff Girls.

Rugrats,The Wild Thornberries, Hey Arnold were so awesome.

I'm from the Harry Potter Generation.

I was born in the 90s and I'm one of the last creatures here on earth to have my birth year start with number one.

Someday

Someday when we are wiser,When the world's older,When we have learned.I pray someday we may yet live to live and let live.
Someday life will be fairer,Need will be rarerGreed will not pay.God speed this bright millennium on its way.Let it come someday.
Someday our fight will be won then,We'll stand in the sun then,That bright afternoon.
Till then, on days when the sun is gone,We'll hang on,Wish upon the moon.
There are some days dark and bitterSeems we haven't got a prayerBut a prayer for something betterIs the one thing we all share
SomedayWhen we are wiser,When the world's older,When we have learned.I praySomeday we may yet liveTo live and let live
SomedayLife will be fairer,Need will be rarerGreed will not pay.God speedhis bright millenniumOn its way.Let it comeIf we wish upon the moonOne daySomeday Soon
One daySomedaySoon

Hear me Cook!

Yes, you heard or read that right. This girl now cooks. Since I love to eat, might as well learn how to cook! Well, it was one of mom's goal--to teach me how to cook. Well so far so good. She taught me basics. The "Bawang-Sibuyas" tandem. She told me as long as I know how to ''gisa" I have a future as a kitchen warrior.

Nagsimula lang ako sa instant noodles, then frying eggs (sunny side-up, scrambled, omelette, hmm you name it!), cooking corned beef, then sinigang and the rest is history or will be history.

This week I cooked two new dishes.

Last Tuesday, I cooked breakfast. I shall call my masterpiece ''Ham & Cheese French Toast". Well, It was supposed to be Pizza Rolls but I had a slight change of plans.

Today is a Saturday and today we celebrate Mother's Day! I prepared baked tahong and it was delicioso !

I feel great! 

5/9

A lot has been going through me.Well, today I started thinking about goals and what I want to accomplish. I know it's not New Year's Day but I just feel like doing it. Which is weird. 

I'm a big fan of pinning pictures in my bedroom wall. I used to have one but my brothers sabotage le pictures. Now, I'm planning to create yet another bedroom statement in my loving wall. I'll print pictures of me, family, friends and goals (i.e. dSLR, Vacation hot spots, etc.). Nothing is impossible right?

Last semester I successfully saved enough money. Now, I'm planning to save some more. I'm opening my second bank account and I'll buy myself a RED piggy bank for les coins and for the idea of fun.

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To buy list:

My things

-Baseball shirt (If I get my hands on a good one)

-Nice vans

-Jansport? (undecided)

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Birthday gift for dad

-A nice exec. watch or aviator shades

Birthday gift for Nicole

-Jersey Jacket (P800)

Birthday gift for Mom

-Perfume or bag

Birthday gift for Jic

-I want to buy him a nice executive watch

Anniversary gift for Jic

-A nice shirt from Artwork or somethin'

I wish I could accomplish these...... :)

Just Because

Why I love him.

1. He has amazing eyes.
2. He's suplado at daig ng gwapo ang suplado. I'm just lucky kasi good-looking din siya.
3. He's sweet.
4. He kisses my hands.
5. He kisses me on my forehead.
6. He's exerting all his efforts just to make me happy especially on special occasions like heart's day.
7. He loves me for who I am.
8. He introduced me to his mom and family.
9. He's brave enough to face my family.
10. He always tell me that he loves me dearly.
11. He walks me home.
12. He's honest.
13. He gives me big hugs!
14. He tells me that I am beautiful.
15. XX Kisses

I am more than lucky to have someone like him. He's my bestfriend. We've been through a lot. Tears and laughters. Enough said. I love you baby~

Les Modelo

Like any typical chic, I dream of fashion in my sleep. Back then, I was anti-make up and up-beat clothes. I'm more of a t-shirt and maong pants kind of girl. Well, I still am. But now that I'm 18, I feel the breath of fashion in my hair.

Next year, I'm planning to start my own fashion blog. That would be my first goal for 2013. I did not plan to work on it this year because I have other goals to accomplish plus I did major changes in my wardrobe. This year, I am planning to save money from my allowances. I hope that I do well. As a matter of fact, I'm planning to open another bank account. The breath of saved money is just alluring.

Today, I just learned the how's and do's of styling long locks. Izzocooool. Thank God for people who loves to share! Blessings indeed!

Tomorrow, I am off to Sta Lucia. I'm planning to buy a paddle brush, bob pins and kojic stuffs. I hope that these babies won't go beyond my budget. Fingers-crossed! I'm still deciding if I should purchase anything tomorrow. Hahaha! Crazy right?

Lihim

"Minsan ang mga bagay na NILILIHIM natin ay yung mga bagay na gustong gusto nating IPAGSIGAWAN."

Karaniwang Date

It was  a karaniwang day with karaniwang friends. Jic and I on a double date with Jomar and Ichi. It was a blast!Talk about UNLIMITED PIZZA at Papa John's. :)

On the Wheels of Love

''Kung may Kotse lang ako"


Hindi mo kailangan ng kotse. Sa simpleng pag-commute, malayo ang mararating natin. In a few years from now you'll be driving your own car. By that time wouldn't it be nice if I'd be riding shotgun? Then, we'll look back and say, "Dati nag-tatrycycle lang tayo tuwing aalis tayo, ngayon naka auto na."

I don't care if we ride a kalesa or a tricycle on our date. Kahit mag-lakad pa tayo. I don't care as long as I'm with you..I'm looking forward to my future with you.

Cowards in Love

Once upon a time. I met a guy. We became friends   best friends. We hang-out, share jokes and deep-eye-contact-that-could-take-your-breath-away. I know that I am in-love with this guy. But I decided to keep it to myself. Then one day he told me that he loves me. I was dumb-struck. I was scared as hell to accept defeat. Well, more like admit. I am scared because he's my best friend. What if...WHAT IF IT DOESN'T WORK? I've been hurt in the past. I don't want it to happen again. I might lose him. I think it's best if I keep my mouth shut. It's so hard. Whenever I'm with him, I feel like hugging him. Everyday, I think of him...us. What if...

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Bet ko na dumating tayo sa isang punto na na-inlove tayo at nasaktan tayo. Minsan mo na ring sinumpa na ayaw mo ng umibig pa. "Tama na, ang sakit eh." o di kaya nasabi mo rin "Ang sakit maging tanga". True, mahirap umibig. True rin na you experience panic and anxiety once you fall in love. When you're in-love you get your fair share of happiness and sadness. Balance yan ngbuhay. Tska dre, shit happens. Totoong buhay na 'to. Hindi ka si Cinderella at wala ka sa Disneyland. Isa itong grand carousel ng realidad. 

Like they always say, love is a roller coaster ride. Kelangan mo lang ng kasama sa ride na yun na hahawakan ang kamay mo at di ka hahayaang matakot. Kahit anong phobia mo sa monster ride na yan...andyan siya. Eventually, ma-eenjoy mo rin ang loopsie-loops, ups and downs ng roller coaster life este ride mo. 

Don't be a coward. It's okay to take risks. Just know your limits and be responsible. Hindi porket nag-take ka na ng risks eh tanga-mode ka nanaman. May times na magiging tanga ka talaga pero be sure as hell to learn from your mistakes. Maging matalino ka rin. Pumili ka ng nararapat sayo at wag kang makasarili. Tandaan mo ring hindi lang ikaw ang umiibig. Mahirap talagang umibig and it's okay to fall head over heels. Parte na yan ng ating buhay.  

Life is short. Don't overthink. Experience is the best teacher and It's damn okay to fall in love.  

Kill them with success and bury them with a smile.

I never doubt my self. I am determined to reach my potential and be successful. But there are people who doubt me. I know they do. I see it. I feel it. The only person you can trust is yourself..well and God of course. It's just sad that not everyone you look up to can support you. Whenever you tell them your dreams, ambitions, wants they give you a doubtful look and a freakishly cold stare. There are times that I just want to keep these dreams to myself since no one cared to dream with me.

Two years from now I will be graduating. I still have a chance to show everyone that I got what it takes to graduate with honors. This semester, I proved myself that I can do well in school. From 1.97 my grades surprisingly improved to 1.78! I know I can do this. I just have to believe in myself. Faith, trust and pixie dust~

Be thankful for the people who told you that you couldn't do it. Because of them, you're determined to push harder and prove them wrong.

-TQ

May All Your Bacon Burn

Howl's Moving Castle. I've never seen any movie like it. I think I'll write a blog about it. Just like EL James (author of Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy), I'd like to create my own fan-fiction-book. Did I say it right? Anyways, I'll have to finish DW Jones' Trilogy (writer of Howl's Moving Castle) before I start writing my own fan fiction.

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Agua de Mayo. I wish it lasted. I had 12 hours of sleep and I still feel tired. Chores, such a drag.

In a few minutes I shall leave this laptop to attend to my daily chores. Mind you I have to wash the dishes, sweep and scrub the floors and of course, baby sit. Mother and dear sister are out and about. Well, they are off to my sister's dance class. Mom went with her on her first day. I think this dance workshop is good for my sister. She'll need to socialize. I wonder what she's up to...

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Facebook kept changing. It's annoying. I wonder what will happen to FB 5 to 10 years from now. Do we still use Facebook by then? Good thing there's twitter and blogger. I get to channel my thoughts in a safer direction. It's hard to lay out your thoughts when you have relatives and not-so-close friends present in your account. Well, let's face it. Our world in the internet is not full of kind people and it is most certainly not full of people who understand you. Think before you click. Yeah, I should do that. I guess we all should.

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There are things in my list that I should accomplish. That includes finishing books that I'm currently reading, doing these bloody chores and to learn to cook some more. That reminds me, I have to start cooking lunch. How does Yang-Chow Rice with Bacon and Corned Beef Sound? Adios~